Monday

I can't wait to get back to work.

I was laid off from my job at a major company last week. Since then I've already secured a job and I'm just waiting on paperwork and a startdate. In the meantime I've been spending time with my family, doing extra work around the house, etc. I love my wife...I love my kids, but I can't wait to get back to work. You don't realize how important work is to you until you don't have it for over a week. This isn't like being on vacation.

I am grateful to have the extra time with my family and my wife, but I am used to having much more time to myself. I'm not used to sitting around the house, and by sitting around the house I mean changing diapers, hanging curtains, getting up when the kids cry in the middle of the night, scrubbing toilets, etc.

I have much more respect for my wife now that I already did.

I just joined a church worship team. The group was in need of some other musicians, but I didn't bring up that I play music because we only recently started going to the church. I knew another member of the church and they mentioned that I played an instrument. So, now I am playing with the worship team. Yesterday was my first time playing in church with them. Tonight was supposed to be the practice for next week, only the leader didn't show up. So, I drove to Dairy Queen and bought a sundae and ate it in the car....that was my rebellion for the day.

Now, I'm going to sign off and I'm probably going to look at porn. Maybe not. We will see. It is one of my biggest struggles at this point.