Sundays

I love Sundays during football season, but I can get pretty wrapped up in the game....too wrapped up in it. Especially, if my team loses like they did today. They are losing in the third quarter and my daughter walks in the room just as I'm yelling, "FUCK!" That's a way to feel like a real loser for a dad. There really isn't any reason to get that upset.

Some other things:

Was laid off a few days ago. I've already accepted another position and I've been trying to use the few days between job to spend time with my family.

Porn - Still watching too much of it. I would rather not watch porn at all, but I don't seem to be able to stop. I go through spurts where I won't look at porn at all for two weeks. But then it will be everyday for three or four days. Usually, after my wife has gone to bed and I should be sleeping. Instead at 2:30am I'm jerking off to porn.

Have been short tempered with my kids. I love my kids. I think that I'm usually a pretty god dad, but recently I haven't had much patience. Don't know if its because I'm home more now that I usually would be, or because I'm tired from staying up late watching porn?

Thats it for today. I'm going to try to do a better job at posting here consistently.